I know things can change if you want them to, at any age. I have reinvented myself. I have found out I can do more than I ever expected in my life by following my free will, my intuition. I have found a niche of personal peace here in Colombia. Life is a roller coaster ride of memories and experiences. It took 52 years of life for me to make my way to Colombia. In my own way I went on a pilgrimage of learning. Learning Spanish, learning a new culture, learning to be alone with myself and loving it, learning to navigate my life without approval from anyone. I am stronger. I am resilient. I challenge myself daily to do more, achieve more, to be kinder, more patient and more loving to others. To try to understand the other person’s point of view, to not judge anyone based on my past experiences, gossip, innuendo, to forgive and move on. It takes courage to grow wiser.
What I have done with my life is called evolving. When life isn’t working for you, then you need to look at what needs to be done to make life work. Be brave, be spontaneous, be smart and be wise. Get rid of the ‘stuff’ in your life that is holding you back. That ‘stuff’ could be your house which is full of ‘more stuff’, people who you have no need to be connected with anymore, too many clothes and buying sprees, the need for attention, the need for personal possessions that are just more clutter in your life. Whatever it is that causes you personal pain, you need to let it go. I did. I have arrived into a place of personal security. Not one of wealth, but a place that brings me satisfaction. I will never be rid of my sadness from my daughter’s death. I will never say I am completely happy, but I will say I am at peace with my life as I live it.
Colombia has made my life as complete as it can be. I have started a business by ‘the seat of my pants’ as my deceased mother would say. I didn’t have a great plan worked out, but I have been successful. I have a purpose in life. When I get up in the morning I am occupied, I am busy, I am full of hope for what I can accomplish. That in itself is worthy.